Not Well

I wrote this on Thursday but did not post. 

Struggling physically and mentally. 

Finding it hard to do anything. 

I fear the game may be up. 

Did well Tuesday: MRI, CT, and blood test. Very tiring. Wife brilliant getting me there for 9.00 a.m. Results will be informative. 

Have a post scheduled for tomorrow (Friday). But after that? 

Still hope to be here to see a million page views. Not far to go. 

On Friday I was going to call the help line, but they called me first. They wanted me at the hospital again, urgently. Was there all day, mostly waiting for more test results and discussions. 

It seems I have a blood clot and a new area of active tumour growth. 

I have been put on a 20-day course of steroids to reduce any possible brain swelling, and blood thinners to reduce the chance of further clots. The self-administered thinner jabs are difficult. They also want me in for one or two nights to drain the fluid from around my chest and lungs. Oh what fun that sounds, but it should make breathing easier. Consultant team will discuss results this week. It might mean more Gamma Knife. Am beginning to feel a bit better as the steroids take effect; it is usually fairly quick. And at least on blood thinners they might have less trouble getting a canula to work.   

Not happy. But they have not written me off yet. 

Have now caught up with comments on last posts.